Today I cobbled things together.

I ended up deciding to have a no-makeup day today because I wouldn’t get another opportunity for one until next Wednesday and although I had trouble with my plain face and new hair yesterday today I seem to be doing ok with it! Still feeling super cute!

At work I was kind of useless as my brain couldn’t get into work mode easily and when it did it was all fuzzy from fasting. On the plus side I got an hour of overtime out of a client’s side deleting is own files which had to be resolved immediately after I had knocked off for the day.

Despite the fact that my stomach didn’t get majorly grumpy about fasting I still had to contend with my brain being less then brilliant so when we went out in the afternoon I started struggling with some mental stuff between weird online interactions with some friends and a frustrating chat with Emily’s mum and my general mood crash and had to work tally hard to get a panic attack under control which I’m quite proud of. After we’d obtained motor oil, wine, and a chiropractic adjustment, we headed home where I curled up on the couch and played Age of Empires 2 HD while we watched Nebula Jazz until bedtime.

Tomorrow I’m headed into work and I am hoping for two things, one, that everyone freaks out about my hair, and two, that I can focus on work for one solid day considering we’re heading out to Sydney on Friday.

Today I lost at Magic.

This morning once I was up and about (Emily was up early for a PT session that got cancelled so she went for a walk) I organised myself some breakfast and then tried to work out the vods for last night’s I Am Not Trying To Kill You stream which ended up being complicated but in the end I worked out how to do what I needed with kdenlive. A little before twelve we headed down to Willunga for lunch with Julia’s family which was nice enough but felt I a little distant today taking to them and especially Julia for some reason which was frustrating. On the plus side every time I walked past a mirror I was surprised by my reflection and started smiling and posing and just generally feeling great cause I love how this hair looks on me. After lunch we did some dollhouse assembly, or Emily did, and then we got it the Magic cards for a game of commander. Rhys had a new pre-built commander deck which did totally destroy us but it was fun to get the cards out considering how long it’s been since we last played.

Once we were finished getting beaten and made our way home I managed to get the vods uploaded to YouTube and finished off the dishes while we watched the last of the Court of Swords that’s out and started catching up on Nebula Jazz.

Tomorrow is gonna be a fasting day and working from home which is really confusing because of how today was a public holiday so I am going straight from no work to working from home such seems weird.

Today I got a haircut.

I’ve had the same hair for pretty much my entire adult life, even through gender transition. I realised a while ago that although I wear it in a pretty standard way it’s the same way that a bunch of my favourite characters from games and other media wear their hair and I’ve resonated with that, found strength in sharing a look with my heroes. But I’m going to GXaus this weekend and I need my look to be extra cybergay so after spending the morning having breakfast and then doing some website work for one of Emily’s clients we headed up McLaren Vale and I had my first proper serious fem haircut. I showed Anne, the hairdresser, a bunch of random pictures of cyberpunk bobs and then a bunch of pictures of Sombra from Overwatch and then they did crazy shit with my hair for four hours and at the end I looked fully ready to pilot a giant robot or hack a corporate mainframe and I am chuffed as fuck.

When we got home we took some pictures with the good camera and then I headed straight to my desk to start preparing for today’s episode of I Am Not Trying To Kill You. I didn’t get much prep time and it was tight work to wrap up the story line in four hours but we did it and it was so fucking epic. Tomorrow I’m gonna have to edit the vods and put them up online as quick as possible because I am so freaking proud of how amazing that session was. Between my amazing hair and my GMing skills in pretty sure I’m at near peak attractiveness to Emily right now. Oh and we got accepted for the Indie Games Room. And the schedule for GXaus with all the things I’m in came out. God I feel amazing right now.

Tomorrow we’re gonna go and have lunch with Julia’s family and just chill out for the day. We might even get some game work done.

Today I relaxed with my wife.

We lazed about in bed for a good long time this morning. We finally emerged for hot cross buns and feijoas for breakfast which we had while I started my own journey in No Man’s Sky. My starting planet was a lot harsher than Emily’s so I’m having a very different experience all around. Of course, the GM in me has to name every single thing so that does slow me down a bit but it’s a lot of fun. I just wish it weren’t so easy to accidentally submit an unfinished name, both planets I’ve been to now have at least one typo species.

After a few hours of space exploration we headed out to the shops where Emily went in and got things because I was unshowered, unshaven, and still wearing my onesie.

When we got back we had some lunch and then decided to have a bath and watch some Court Of Swords which we did for a very long and relaxing lovely time. When we finally emerged I put my onesie back on and we continued Court of Swords as I did some of the dishes and Emily started sorting out the secondary bookshelf which she continued even as I gave up on my task and retired to the couch to play Age Of Emipres 2 for the rest of the evening. Her organising of the bookshelf was super impressive though and its so nice to have that corner of the house sorted out now even if it does mean getting rid of some books we don’t really want anymore.

Tomorrow we’ve got my streaming show I Am Not Trying To Kill You in the evening where we’re going to try and wrap up the story of the MountainBoat crew and I’m genuinely worried about whether or not I have the skill required to wrap it up nicely but I trust my players and I’m learning to trust my own skills so we’ll see how that goes. Before that though, Emily and I might go out on a little date! We’ll see how we feel in the morning.

Today I made people have a religious experience.

This morning I maybe slept in a while and then when Emily got home I was sitting on the floor next to BMO’s cage playing with him while wearing a towel because I got distracted on the way to the shower. Eventually I had some breakfast and a shower and then sat down to do some really cool makeup for GMing. I tried using multiple colours of eyeshadow for the first time which made a cool gradient and tried doing some cool shapes with my eyeliner which weren’t as neat as I would have liked but I’m gonna keep practicing cause cool makeup is so much fun! Once we were all ready for the day we headed out and got some lunch and by the time we’d gotten home and eaten it Bear and Alison arrived for DnD. The game included some character creation and a lot of bushitting and even a little nap for Alison and I but we managed to introduce the new character, set out on a quest, encounter some fire beetles and a church whose enchantment magic gave characters who failed a wisdom save an overwhelming religious experience of universal unconditional love which I thought was cool but obviously it wasn’t as cool for my players as they mostly reacted bitterly and angrily towards the situation which I had assumed some would but I had hoped at least one character would take something meaningful on board from the experience. At least they decided not to fully destroy the stained glass that made the effect. There was also some cool stuff with a Dwarven wizard the players know from their past being magically sick from trying to cast a resurrection spell on himself as he was dying and thus fucking it up and the players having to deal with his feverish body hovering four feet off the ground at all times.
It was a pretty neat adventure and I had a surprising amount of feels but I also learned some valuable GMing lessons which is always good.

Tomorrow I’m pretty sure we’re having a chill day and I’m gonna finally do the dishes.