Today I explored space on stream from the couch with my wife.

Work today was frustrating because my brain didn’t want to go but I made it through relatively unscathed, even managed to do a load of washing in the breaks. Once I was we popped around to the shops to get caffeine and vegetables and then back home in time to do my makeup and set up the lounge for streaming.

Emily and I Streamed No Man’s Sky for four hours and had an intense but really fun time and we had a fair few people joining in and chat was nice and active which was rad. Afterwards we watched an episode of Madoka and then chilled out to Scum And Villainy vods as I worked on channel art and schedule stuff for my twich and YouTube channels.

Tomorrow is Thursday which is my hump day that I always struggle with and in all likelihood I’ll be stuck in training for the duration of Bluejay’s bookclub stream which has been helping me deal with it for the last few weeks. I’m gonna make sure I focus on self care as much as possible while also trying to keep my productivity up to speed.

Today I struggled on my own.

I was in a super weird place this morning where I had lost my place in my sense of time but managed to make it to work in good time. The morning was all taken up by training that only got completely boring towards the end. After getting morning tea I started working while tuned in to Bluejay’s stream which was really nice even if I wasn’t as engaged in the work as I could be, after the stream ended and I started to spiral and ended up struggling a bunch for the rest of the work day and on the train home. When I got home though Emily was there and Dave hung around long enough for a cup of tea and I got hugs and I felt a lot better. Once Emily’s phone was charged we then got to jump into a group video chat party for Sarah’s birthday where we drank tea and watched all the video gifts she’d been sent and ate cake and it was lovely. Afterwards we climbed into bed and tried to watch Madoka but Emily fell asleep halfway though the first episode we started watching so we declared it sleepytime.

Tomorrow I’m getting up early to do character creation for an upcoming Ryuutama game and then working from home until it becomes tone for No Man’s Sky Couch Streaming times which I am very very super keen for.

Today I ran Scum And Villainy

I slept and then lay in until 11 this morning to avoid getting hungry as it was the back half of a fast and it was kind lovely. Once I was up and about I had some breakfast and then put on some Scum and Villainy vods Android did the dishes and some laundry. One those were done I settled in on the couch to finish reading though the Scum And Villainy which was super intense and took all afternoon but I managed to get all my ducks in a row in time for the game.

The game itself was pretty darn excellent. The characters that the players created are rad as heck and I want to do my best to create the best experience possible for them. I feel like I struggled a little because I was GMing a new game but the responses from the players and audience seemed to suggest I was doing a pretty good job so I’ll trust that.

Tomorrow I’m back at work and I’m actually feeling pretty confident which is a nice change so I’mma try and ride that.

Today I recovered with self care and a partner’s comfort.

The morning started out super lovely with Emily making me eggs and toast for breakfast because we forgot it was a fasting day before heading out to her personal training. However, I wanted to have my long shower today to avoid doing it on an empty stomach and my head space has been pretty rough recently and so shower time ended up being a pretty massive fuckin crash into the despair pit. I managed to complete the shower though and afterwards Emily was there with lots of comfort and love. I was still very fucking shaky for a while but after as the morning moved on, with some nice clothes and makeup, and happy BMO times, and couch cuddles, and love from my Emily, I ended up in a super lovely warm fuzzy happy place instead, which was amazing. I had planned to do organise a part of The Republic today but instead the day became about self care and it was pretty darn effective at that. I managed to edit a bunch of photos that Julia took of me on Thursday which I was really happy with and we watched some Roll20 vods and then I discovered what might be my new favourite roleplaying game: Scum And Villainy. It’s fucking amazing and all the touchstones are my favourite things. I basically spent the rest of the night devouring the text and watching vods of it being actual played and organising to play it tomorrow for the next three weeks on I Am Not Trying To Kill You.

Tomorrow I’m gonna do the dishes and then play Scum And Villainy on stream and I’m so so fucking hype, I can not even explain.

Today (Saturday) I mostly sat at my desk.

I snoozed my 7 am alarm until half past this morning and then dragged myself out of bed and got myself presentable and fed before jumping on stream with Darkest Dungeon. We played that for just over for hours but the last section ended up involving two graphics card crashes which I assume are due to overheating or similar.

After the second my computer didn’t want to start back up but eventually managed to get it going again, at which point my mum turned up to go to the supermarket together, which we did, and it was a bit weird but not as weird as it could have been. Afterwards I spent a little time playing with BMO to calm my nerves and then headed back to my desk where I fixed a couple of issues with Monadnock and some phrasing stuff in The Republic and then watched a little bit of Adam vods to again helped calm my shell shocked nerves. Eventually though Emily and Dave returned from their massive hike and Emily and I had cheesy pasta for dinner and watched Madoka which I’m super enjoying.

Tomorrow it doesn’t look like we’re playing Torchbearer so we might be playtesting The Republic in the afternoon. We’ll see.

Today I worked a little too long.

I worked from home this morning and was having trouble being productive. Dave arrived for coworking and we were going to do Monadnock work after I finished work at 2:30. In the end though people kept asking me questions and getting me to do small take so that I didn’t actually finish up until nearly four. Dave, Emily, and I had time for a quick round of Codenames: pictures before we jumped in the car to drop Emily off at her mum’s for the night, on the way back to our place we grabbed some chicken and chips for dinner and then watched some YouTube on the couch while we ate it and then finally got around to getting some Monadnock work done. Once we were too tired to write good code though we retired back to the couch to watch some robot wars until it was time for Dave to head home and for be up hit the sack.

Tomorrow I’m gonna be very tired as I have to be up early to get ready for streaming and I’ve ended up still awake at a silly hour.

Today (Thursday) I got to be a model.

This morning I had to drive into work and was only they’re for about an hour before I had to drive out to a client’s site to deliver some training.

During that hour I managed to knock out an important testing call and then I did really well delivering the training at the client site. In fact, we actually finished early.

I headed home but ended up at Julia’s place because that’s where Emily was and ate snacks and have myself trans pride makeup and then ended up getting photographed by Julia which was really fun. I’m really enjoy omg learning the skills of both taking pictures and also being in them. I’ve gotten to the point now where modelling feels like a skill I could work at improving if I wanted to, instead of having no idea and I think I might like to try that some more.

Just as we were about to leave Julia’s place the horrid weather took out the power at her place so we headed back home where there were lights and heaters.