Today I dealt with each thing as it came up.
I woke this morning after a lovely sleep in to 37 pieces of feedback on the article I’m writing and they’re all super valuable but every time I make the suggested changes I feel like it sounds less and less like me. Every time I get to the next one I have this internal struggle between a good suggestion from a person I trust that looks right, and feeling like I’m losing myself in my own text.
I also found out that a campaign I organised for IANTTKY would need to be rescheduled. We eventually worked out a new time but it’s left a gap that I will have to fill in the meantime.
We were supposed to play World of Warcraft with Alison this afternoon but we are completely broke until payday so Alison lent us the money for sub time, except the money transfer which has always been and is advertised as instant didn’t go through straight away which we only worked out after an hour or two of fucking around and calling the bank for an inadequate explanation, which they provided as condescendingly as possible.
After we’d given up on World of Warcraft for the day Emily happened to find something on line which upset her in an unexpected way and so we spent a good couple of hours working through that and dealing with her head stuff around that which was super valuable but took a lot of spoons from both of us.
I had a shower to get ready for I Am Not Trying To Kill You and Emily came and sat with me cause I knew I was emotionally pretty low which was great but she had to go back to her desk when I was trying to get dressed and being shouted at by the bird so that definitely took longer than it should have due to moods. I also wanted to do weird makeup again for the stream today and I had some cool ideas but it was pretty obvious that I had gone into “this looks weird but not in a cool way” territory with my first attempt and only managed to salvage some of it with some fixes. Still looked weird but at least it was ok enough to go on stream.
The game of The Quiet Year was actually super rad though. The audio issues were easier to manage thanks to the changes in my setup and we had a really amazing and fun time actually playing the second half of the game together so that was a total win.
Tomorrow, I’ve got a full day at work and I’m kind of dreading it just because I don’t feel like I’m rested and ready enough but that’s the drum beat I’m marching to sonic just hope I can find a nice focus for my work for the day.