Today I played games. I spent a bunch of the day playing Terraria with Erin and Christine and then I ran a wee session if Splintering Wheel for Discord friends and then I spent the rest of the evening working on Qud mods. It was extremely chill and lovely.

Today I mostly relaxed. I had a nice video chat with Emily, I got some work done on a code project I’m working on, I finished watching Waiting For Godot, I hung out with Clover for a bit, and I streamed some Caves Of Qud! It was great!

Today I napped a lot. I slept in til eleven and then between video chats and watching streams and ordering groceries and doing some hobby code I managed to nap a bunch of times as well. I had a nasty headache for a bunch of the day and the futon plus weighted blanket is a deadly combo of comfiness so I didn’t really stand a chance.

Today I got to catch up with friends. I managed to make it into the Arcade by around midday today and got to chat with a friend who is sitting at the desk across from me. I struggled with the cold from the air conditioning though and my fatigue kicked in pretty hard around 2pm so I managed to find an out of the way chair to take a nap in. After finishing up at the arcade I walked to a friend’s place nearby and we had dinner and played a boardgame before I headed home to nurse a nasty headache that’s been hanging around this week.

Today was my first day working at the Arcade. I worked out the public transport to get there and it’s not great but it’s workable. I got there at midday and had some solid work time in between catching up with Melbourne friends I haven’t seen in ages. Headed home around six and finished off the least couple of hours of work there, which I think is a nice pattern.

Today I tried not to get a migraine. I have a headache on the left side of my head which usually develops into a migraine or, more commonly for me these days, a cluster headache which is worse. I was going to go into the Arcade for my first day in the coworking space today but I decided to play it safe and nurse my head. I watched the last episode of the new Dracula show with Erin and Christine which was less good than the first two but still interesting. I played some civ 6 with Clover, and now I’m trying to get what work work I can get done without pushing myself too hard. Tomorrow though: The Arcade. Leaving the house.

Today I organised a desk at The Arcade. It’s a bit of a hassle to get there from the house but getting to work in the Arcade was half the reason I came to Melbourne so I’m proud of myself for actually getting that sorted. Tomorrow I’ll try catching BM public transport there to see how that goes.

Today I went to the shops. Mostly it was just a comfy day. I slept in till like midday because this new weighted blanket is WAY too comfy and it’s gonna be a PROBLEM, and I spent most of the day watching the new Netflix Dracula or playing Civ 6 with people I love. But in the middle I managed to navigate myself to the supermarket, which is about a 20 minute walk through a lovely park, in search of a pillow and a towel, get way too enthusiastic about buying snacks, and then slowly lug the heavy bags back to the house, which I’m pretty proud of. Exploring and problem solving!

Today I flew to Melbourne without a return ticket. A couple of people asked me if I was excited but I really don’t know. I’m more lost than anything but that was kind of my intention, to take away my own routines and safe familiarities and set myself adrift on the winds of fate. Staying in Adelaide was kind of stagnant in some ways, painful in others, and depressing in others. I don’t know what happens now that I’ve left but I’m at least curious to see, if not quite “excited” about that unknown.

Today I did a bunch with mum’s help.

Mum rocked up at nine this morning and we went for a nice long walk for some exercise and then, because Emily wasn’t home yet she helped wash the dishes, take out the rubbish and helped with some other cleaning. I rushed through the shower and we headed out and did grocery shopping. By the time we got back Emily was home and I was exhausted. We went over to the vardo where Emily painted and I napped. Then we made savoury muffins together, after which it was time for the finale of our game of Court Of Swords which was pretty damn excellent in my own opinion. Now though, I am super sleepy. I definitely defied my spoon count this morning and that felt victorious, but I’m being realistic and not assuming that will be the norm ongoing.

Today I ran Goblin Heart ( for a bunch of people I love.

I was genuinely surprised how well it worked and did the things we wanted it to do and it was so lovely to get to play with so many of my beautiful friends who all seemed to have such a great time. We had delicious bakery lunch and then later I MIGHT have wasted an hour of everyone’s time with a shaggy dog story. Dave wrote me a note about it.

The day was all just so much fun and my heart is just so full of love now. Thankyou so much to the beautiful friends that made today amazing. ❤?

Today it was my birthday and I streamed for 13 hours. I was up around eight thirty and opened my present from Emily. An amazing dress that I decided I had to wear today. We started streaming around half past ten and played Across The Endless Sea with Emily and Elf and Andrew and then Andrew and Emily continued on with me for four hours of Minecraft and a cake for lunch. Then by that time it was dinner time so we got pizza and played DungeonWorld with Emily and Luke and Melody which was super great and a lovely way to round out the evening. I ate so many tasty things and I’m so exhausted but I had such a nice time and it was so lovely to get to spend time with the people who joined me on stream and all the amazing people in my chat and the people who came and visited to give me a hug even if only briefly. What a great birthday! Tomorrow Dave is coming around for coworking and the weather is gonna be real nice so I’m gonna try and get good work done and then relax.

On Tuesday I didn’t get enough work done. I spent most of the day feeling nervous about the work I needed to get done and then distracting myself so eventually when the end of the workday rocked around I hadn’t really achieved anything. Luckily for me though after work I got to meet up with Melody and go hang out at her place for the evening which was really lovely and relaxing and I got to see Sarah and it was just a really nice time.

On Wednesday I watched a speedrun.

I wasn’t super on task during the working part of the day but I managed to get enough done to feel slightly less panicky. After work Emily and I did a space date No Man’s Sky stream together which was really super lovely with great chat. Afterwards Emily headed out for the evening and I went and got fish and chips for dinner and ate them while watching a Crash Bandicoot 2 speedrun which is the first time I’ve ever really bothered to watch a whole speedrun but it was really interesting because it’s a game I’ve played a lot and have feelings about.

On Saturday I mostly chilled out.

In the morning I was up early for my Hand Of Fate 2 stream which was really fun despite the game being quite difficult. In the evening we watched all of the remaining episodes of Stranger Things Season Two which was great, though not as tight as the first season.

On Sunday I played a lots of amazing roleplaying games.

We delayed our start with Girl By Moonlight by an hour which meant that Melody could come down and play from our place and Andrew had enough time to get settled which was really good. The game itself was amazing and had some really solid deep roleplaying and I felt like I did really well on the sensory descriptions of my scenes. Afterwards Emily and Melody and I headed out to the bakery for lunch and then in the evening Emily and I played Stonetop with Luke and Liam online and I really enjoyed it. I loved playing my character and the game flows so nicely. It was just great.

Today, Monday, I slept through half the day.

It was really warm today so I put a load of laundry on early and then we headed out to the shops to grab some essentials. Back at home we spent most of the rest of the day watching Court Of Swords and I alternated between doing the dishes and napping on the couch. Eventually in the evening though I had a shower and put on my makeup and ran what was a pretty good episode of Alas For The Awful Sea on stream which was really fun.

Tomorrow I’m working in the city but I get to see Melody in the evening which will be nice.

Today I got some tasks done.

I got up a little early today, had my long shower, got dressed and then made breakfasts for Em and I and then managed to feed BMO and the finches and clean the kitchen and toilet before work. Work itself was mostly a bust where I couldn’t get things done for most of the day but I managed to sort out a little more of my birthday stuff so that was a win. Plus Dave arrived for coworking which was nice. After work I managed to make some progress on some commissioned work I’ve got and we ate some of the strawberry and rhubarb pie Emily baked and drank chai and then Emily headed off to her mum’s for the night.

Dave and I went for a walk after seeing Emily off and wound up at Fridays after five and got some dinner before heading back to the house to spend the evening sleepily watching Robot Wars and Adam Savage videos.

Tomorrow I’m gonna play some Hand Of Fate 2 on stream in the morning and then I’m honestly not sure what happens after that.

Today I had the second most tough mental health struggle.

I worked from home today because my headspace was really shaky and it didn’t improve much but watching Adam and Bluejay and Elf stream really helped me stay afloat. Emily was out most of the day having to deal with some super tough stuff so when she got home it was nice to be able to make tasty pasta for dinner and sit and watch Stranger Things and then Thomas Sanders videos all evening.

Tomorrow Dave is coming round and I’m working from home and hopefully getting some cleaning done.

On Friday I was so excited for the weather to turn warm. I worked in the morning and Dave came around to cowork. Forb lunch I headed out into the lovely warm and got a prawn and chorizo pie from the bakery and it was amazing. In the evening after Emily had headed to her mum’s Dave and I went and got Paella for dinner at Fridays after five and then came back and watched the first episode of the new Robot Wars and then a bunch of Adam Savage videos.

On Saturday I played Hand Of Fate 2 on stream in the morning which was super neat. After my stream Dave turned up and the three of us had chai before I headed out to a doctor’s appointment which ended up being super late. After the doctor’s appointment I headed around to Simon and Jess’s and we had dinner and talked shit until 2am and then I crashed there on their spare bed.

On Sunday I had a nice lazy morning, having home made English muffins with Simon and Jess for breakfast and then ambling my way home after that. I’m not sure what happened to the rest of that day but I’m pretty sure it was mostly just chilling out.

On Monday I got shut down with a migraine. I spent basically the whole day napping today, apart from managing to get a load of laundry done and putting away the clean dishes. We started playing Alas For The Awful Sea on stream but Hayley’s technical difficulties and my growing headache meant that we cut it out after an hour and a half and then I spent the rest of the evening on the couch with a wet cloth over my eyes.

On Tuesday I had a diagnostic psych session. I only worked till lunch time and a bunch of that was meetings but after that I headed to Flinders and met up with Emily and spent a bit over an hour unearthing and digging through my trauma and mental health issues. Afterwards we went and got frozen yoghurt as a reward and then I went and spent the evening hanging out with Melody.

Today (Wednesday) we found out the results of the Marriage Equality survey. They came back positive and we should have Marriage Equality by Christmas but it was a pretty emotional time. After work we ran an errand and then spent the evening playing Minecraft on stream with Andrew which is always such a gosh darn lovely time.

Today I was mostly on twitch.

I was super tired this morning but headed into work where my mood got all whack but I managed to get work done anyway, though I also had Adam and Bluejay’s streams in for company the whole time. After work I came home and ran Scum And Villainy which was probably a little more ridiculous than I would have liked but was ultimately a really fun game and I love seeing the faces of all those players and getting to play with them.

Tomorrow I’m working from home and Dave is coming around. I’m hoping I don’t have to contend with these shit feelings from nowhere again.

Today I floated over my roughness.

My mood was kinda out of whack today but I managed to get a decent amount of work done just nursing myself through it. After work we popped down to the post office and then came home where I napped for a while until it was time to stream. The No Man’s Sky stream with Emily was super lovely. Chat was super involved and lovely and we found some cool stuff and afterwards I got to just chill out and watch Jaime’s stream till bed time.

Tomorrow I’m working in the city again and then I get to run Scum And Villainy in the evening.

Today I got to hang out with Melody.

This morning I was super tired but I managed to get myself moving and drove into the city for work and did a pretty good job of focusing on the task at hand for the day and making progress on the project I’m working on.

Afterwards Melody met me outside my work and we drove to her place and spent the evening eating pasta and chatting and watching Overwatch shorts on YouTube.

Tomorrow I’m working from home and then streaming with Emily but it will a fasting day which will suck a little.

Today’s I streamed for ten hours.

I was a little slow getting ready this morning but I managed to be on stream only fifteen minutes late. I managed to get up to the final card in Hand Of Fate but after playing for six hours I couldn’t beat it so now I have the dilemma of whether or not I spend another stream trying to defeat that last card boss or do I just start afresh with Hand Of Fate 2 for my next PC stream?

Afterwards I napped hard on the couch for a few hours and then managed to get the dishes done quickly enough to allow myself time to prep for Alas For The Awful Sea.

Our Alas game this evening was actually awesome. We built some excellent characters and I found my feet GMing it pretty quickly. I’m super keen to see how the game carries on from over the next few sessions.

Tomorrow I’m working in the city but I am feeling confident about my ability to get things done and then in the evening I get to go hang out with Melody and maybe Sarah.

Today I went on a scavenger hunt.

This morning I woke up to a reminder that today was Sarah’s J’s birthday party so I moved my streaming plans to tomorrow, spent the morning in bed trying to nurse my headspace into a good place and then, after we’d done The grocery shopping, I headed into the city. The party was mostly a picnic gathering with a ridiculous amount of baked goods and snacks. There was, however, a photo scavenger hunt so Genevieve, Josh and I formed a team and went and took photos of an ugly heritage building, our band EP cover, a cursed image, ugly Christmas decorations, and reenactments of film scenes.

Afterwards we picniced some more until it was finally time to head home where Emily and I had a lovely dinner together and started the new series of Stranger Things. The whole party was a super lovely time and I really like all those people and then it was really nice to come home to a lovely evening with Emily.

Tomorrow I’m gonna stream hand of fate in the morning and then alas for the awful sea in the evening.

Today I played roleplaying games all day.

I had a really hard time getting up and motivated this morning but I managed to shower and dress and take my meds and some food and do a load of laundry and feed and water most of the birds before our first game which I count as a pretty good set.

I was worried about running girl by moonlight today because we’ve had a break and I didn’t get to go over my thoughts beforehand but the game ended up being really good anyway, partially due to good design, partially due to the skill of the other players, and partially due to my GM on the fly skills. Afterwards I had a quick nap and then we did session zero of a DungeonWorld hack called Stonetop and I’m honestly so excited for this game now, the characters and our version of Stonetop we’ve created are SO GOOD. I can’t wait for the two weeks before our episode One.

Tomorrow I’m gonna play some video games on stream and try not get some resting done.

Today I achieved a bunch of solid small victories.

I got up at seven thirty this morning, got ready and managed to get the dishes done before starting work at nine. At work I managed to remain focused and make some major progress with the project I’m working on. While I was working Dave arrived for a coworking day and then when I finished work for the day I went for my walk. After I got back we all had chai together and then shortly after Emily’s mum came and picked her up and then Dave and I headed to Fridays After Five, a local weekly market that pops up during the warmer months. We got some dinner and also some candles and then came home and basically spent the evening watching Adam Savage workshop videos on YouTube until late.

Tomorrow I am running episode Two of our girl by moonlight game and hopefully organising Monday’s game.

Today I managed to get a bit of work done.

This morning I was SO TIRED getting up and that didn’t really abate for the rest of the day but I headed into work, watched some of Adam’s birthday stream, and also some Bluejay, got some work done, tried not to panic, and headed home. For dinner we headed around to my parents’ place where we played Finska (I won) and then had lasagne and tea which mum chose not to strain because she “likes it with the leaves in”?

After we finally left my parents’ place we headed home and I headed straight to bed due to tiredness.

Tomorrow I’m working from home and Dave is coming round and I’m gonna go for a walk and I’m actually looking forward to it all.